Grateful

I am grateful to the rooms of recovery AA/CA for the love and for the lack of love that I have received through out the years. My Home-group is the 185 in Altadena, CA. For them I am truly grateful. I have received much love and just enough lack of love to make me stay and learn a lot about ME .... When I first moved out to IE in 2006(Fontana) .... I was treated like a total stranger, an alien, a unwanted creature .... yet I am truly grateful for that too.... for about a year after moving to the IE (Fontana) I still went to Altadena to go to meetings .... I would do one or two out here if I didn't have gas but it was so uneasy .... it just didn't feel natural .... I tried and tried to give it a chance but the more I tried the worst it felt .... So I dug deeper into the Big Book, the 12 n 12 and worked on ME! I am still connected to some people in the rooms but not really the rooms. ... The good thing is it made me grow up and I am no longer addicted to the meetings.... Today I go to meetings out of enjoyment and not desperation. I will never be cured but I am done!