A different kind of sobriety!

*** This was originally posted (6-20-12) to a Blog that I just closed ... but after re-reading it I wanted to save it so here it is. (It is still a big part of me..... controlling myself) A different kind of sobriety! You know there is "sobriety" and then you have SOBRIETY; which is what I call "sober serenity"! You know when you all of a sudden notice that none of the drama is yours.....But, your name and or your kids name gets thrown in to it..... and the police are called ..... and your child's name is thrown into that and lies and different stories being told (like always) and so on...... You know trials are something else..... You wanna beat the brakes out of a person.... but you don't! You can''t! Because you know that you are dealing with a real sick person. This chick really needs to go see a therapist. She lies so much that she forgets which story she told who, so if you pay attention to the trash she talks about everybody ...... including you! Trust me she has talked about EVERYBODY but me, to me. I am soooooo mad right now that i just wanna; ...... i just wanna .......but i won't. I like who I am and I do not have to feed into some one else s bs..... So tonight my sobriety is in NOT FIGHTING!!! Now I so understand my home-girl; she has a sobriety date for FIGHTING; to cool !!! I don't remember how long its been .... but I have not had a fight in a long time..... trying to be to wise for that. .... Don't get me wrong...don't hit me! Journal-in really does help ( hence this blog).... you may not know what this is all about but I do! Just getting it off my mind .... working it out! My Spirit is happy because I was able to contain myself today. My Heavenly Father is probably looking at me and thinking " She barely made it through this one"... "Well done my good and faithful servant"